Trust It All?

Don't you know that feeling of "trust it all to you Lord?" It's an interesting place to be in, but very necessary in learning to acknowledge Christ's leading for all areas of our lives. I can bring this point home to my scholastic education (I know, the example is getting old, but it's very real in my life right now). I don't suffer from test anxiety too much because I try my best to learn the info before the day of the test. However, there's that feeling of "I don't know if I can do this!" that I always get. This Monday I took my first microbiology test of the spring quarter. Right before going in to take it, I walked the perimeter of my small college building and just prayed. By the time I got to the theatre, where I test, I'd finally let God take my concern about my test score.
I've grown accustomed having the highest scores in all of my classes, and I've been feeling like perhaps that status is getting to me. God was calling to my heart to surrender even my desire to do the best in class. Wasn't doing my best for Him enough? To a heart that loves doing things well, that was a hard call. To someone who has grown used to having something one way, to seeing hard work pay off with confirmation for a favorite teacher, it is hard to trust it all to the Lord. Yet, trusting it all to the Lord, leaning not upon my own understanding is a fact that I must remember and a point that God so graciously reminded me of. Why do I doubt His good intentions? After all, when I do my best for Him, He has never ever failed me. It's through Him that my good grades have always come, and it's through Him that I had victory over some pride I've been harboring. I want to recommit my works unto the Lord, to trust in Him with all my heart, for my understanding is only short-shortsightedly human. With His power I can do anything, not of myself, but through Him! Praise be to the Lord!