Resettled

     If vacations are supposed to be relaxing, then I didn’t go on one until the second half of being on the Big Island Hawai’i. I spent a week agonizing over my decision to attend Weimar College this fall for pre-med. Before I said I would go, I had gone back and forth over the pros and cons of going verses going or doing as my blog post “Verdict” says. I had peace for about 3 days about my choice to go to Weimar. Then I had a dream. In it some people I know asked me why I had decided to leave them when there was so much I could have done for them by staying, and the opportunity that I could have had of sharing my Jesus with them. Wow, how do you go against something like that? After that dream I struggled once again, not sure if this was the right choice. It had been made hastily, after the stress of working at Young Disciple Youth Bible Camp for most of July, and with a lot of emotions tied up in it. Finally I talked my options over with my parents, and with great relief I decided against attending this year and staying home and finishing my AA degree this year. Once I made that choice, I reachieved great peace. My vacation became real. I could sit on the beach and not cry into the sand. My indecision became decision and I’ve not once reconsidered else-wise. I believe this is God’s leading.
      My intentions for this following year are as my “Verdict” post say. I’ll not sit idly by the way side watching some of my dear friends get into college programs, but I will too actively search and study out different science and medical related fields, trying to determine what I want to do. After I know the what then will come the where.
       I got home from vacation last night (Aug. 12). The last week was lovely. I enjoyed the water, the sand, the beach, the plants, the rest, the quiet... Although I didn’t love the lava rock, the volcano was neat.
      I wanted to share one quote that one of my friends showed me this past week. It was helpful in showing me that the position I held of indecision needed to become settled. Resettled, that is. :-)

Long delays tire the angels. It is even more excusable to make a wrong decision sometimes than to be continually in a wavering position, to be hesitating, sometimes inclined in one direction, then in another. More perplexity and wretchedness result from thus hesitating and doubting than from sometimes moving too hastily. {3T 497.3}